New Year, New Blog - Day 45

Day 45.

I slept quite well last night considering I put myself under a lot of stress. All I've thought about today has been flying and whether I can do it. There are lots of 'what ifs' at the moment. What if I agree to go and get to boarding the plane and chicken out? What if I go and something does go wrong on the plane? I have been looking at alternatives to flying to America. I've looked at getting a boat from Scotland or Denmark to Iceland, then to Greenland and then to Canada. Its something I'd consider doing if it means I can go and see family. Another option is getting a cruiseship from Southampton to New York and then a train to Michigan somehow. That costs about double the price of flying and takes about 8days longer than flying. Thats also something I'd do and be quite happy to pay for. Lots to think about and not long to get all the thinking done.

This morning I was at Simpson Autocare with Chris. I wasn't working on Penny the Peugeot today as we have done all we can until Chris works out the next move. It shouldn't be long now until she rules the road again. Today I helped Chris with Elvis the Escort. I think I shall name all the cars I help with from now on. I just did a bit of sanding as Elvis is a complete restoration job. Elvis is just the shell at the moment, no interior, no engine, no electrics. Just an empty frame of a car. It was nice not getting my hands greasy and doing something different. 

I got back about 2ish and after a shower I sat down to watch the 3rd Lord of the Rings films, The Return of the King. It lasted 242mins. A little over 4 hours long. It was an excellent film and I didn't notice how long it was. I also can't see how it could have been edited shorter for cinema and regular DVD release. I think I'll be adding them to my blu ray collection.

I was told once that I think too much and I have certainly been doing that lots recently, so off to bed I go.

Until tomorrow.

Jim

New Year, New Blog - Day 44

Day 44. 

I'm not really feeling like I want to write a blog today. We went to book our holiday to America and I have until Thursday to decide if I can go. I had to leave the travel agents to get some fresh air half way through. I do want to go to see family and I know I'll have a great time, but I can't get on a plane. There is nothing that will make me get on a plane. I think I've developed a nervous twitch over the past few weeks while I've been thinking about the decision. Everytime I think about being on a plane, I see myself looking out over the left wing and its a long way down and I know there is nothing holding the plane up. Lots of people have said that I have more chance of dying in a car crash or out riding my bike. That might be well and true but at least I would feel somewhat in control of that situation should it come about. On a plane, there is nothing I could do about it should it go wrong. The thought of falling uncontrollably is stopping me and there is nothing else I can think of when I think of getting on a plane and flying. My fear of flying will ruin my life. 

Until tomorrow.

Jim

New Year, New Blog - Day 9

Day 9 was fairly quiet and went really quick. Nothing interesting happened today, it was a normal day. I enjoyed all my lessons which is unusual for a Monday. My 1st lesson of the day was a btec sport lesson and it took me a while to wake up and focus on the what the teacher was talking about. Once that was finished I went to a science lesson and learnt some science stuff. Then onto maths then business studies before geography ended the school day. 

When I got home I started to watch Reservoir Dogs for the 1st time. I havn't finished it yet and what I saw of it I really enjoyed. But after an hour of it, I fell asleep and had a little 30 minute power nap and felt great afterwards. Lets hope I can sleep tonight!

I have a something to ask of my readers. I'm petrified of flying, and my family are going to America to visit family for a holiday in the summer. They went 2 years ago and went to New York and I didn't go because I am afraid of flying. They had such a wonderful time and I was left at home. I hate flying and even get scared just thinking about it and sometimes can't be in the same room as people who are talking about flying.

Could I be pursuaded to go even though I am so scared of flying? What would you do? I probably won't go as the fear is too much for me, but is there anyone who could help?

I think I'll finish on that note tonight. If you can offer advice then please do. 

Until tomorrow

Jim